Mar 23 2009
NEVER Say Forever
Pain.
Overwhelmed. Crushed. Betrayed.
Lies. Hatred. Tears.
No forgiveness. No more chances.
Pain. Always pain.
Why does life have to hurt so badly?
People say it is only temporary, but it feels so constant. People will say that it’s just a rut, that everyone falls down sometimes… But why’s it feel like nothing has ever gone right in my life? This is not a rut. My life has been a rut. What’s the point? Why keep trying for something which won’t ever come?
You’ll think, “Oh no, just keep on going, things’ll get better!” But isn’t that what you said last time? And the time before that? Or maybe you’re not even here anymore, whoever you are. Why can’t good people ever catch a fucking break? Instead, life simply rolls on; one sad day followed by another, each of them full of relentless pain. More and more and more and more.
I hope that people who do fucked up things live in misery for the rest of their lives.
Life is pain… And I don’t want it anymore.
Pain, I know of quite a bit of physical and emotional pain. I live with it everyday.
Blogging is therapeutic for my pain. That’s when I can see the keyboard and sit long enough to write.
There’s something you must like so, focus on it. It can bring you joy. No one else can make you happy but you.
Smile the sun is coming out and Robbie the raccoon just bumped my downspout heading home after a long night of scavenging.
Rita the redtail is circling high above looking for one my sparrows, or finches, or chickadees.
Something out there can make you smile.